I didn't make the connection until Thursday. At AT's baseball game the other night, I had been talking to PaddyGirl while we watched our younger kids play a pickup game of baseball. During our conversation, I mentioned to her that with HJ's adoption, it just felt right the whole time. I KNEW it was the right thing to do. CP and I had talked about four kids for a long time and we both knew adoption was the method we wanted to grow our family.
This time, though, there are times when I question the "rightness" of DJ's adoption. You know, our family has a happy balance right now - will adding DJ upset our balance? Will DJ end up being a "third wheel" to JA and AT? What effect will DJ's arrival have on HJ? I also have the "normal" concerns with an older child adoption.
Yet, I know, from things that have already happened on this journey, that God is asking us to step out in faith and trust HIM. It wasn't too long (about 20 minutes) after PaddyGirl and I had this conversation that the BLUE ladybug landed on HJ's head. I now realize that God sent me a blue ladybug to remind me that this is HIS will for our life - and not to worry.
This time, though, there are times when I question the "rightness" of DJ's adoption. You know, our family has a happy balance right now - will adding DJ upset our balance? Will DJ end up being a "third wheel" to JA and AT? What effect will DJ's arrival have on HJ? I also have the "normal" concerns with an older child adoption.
Yet, I know, from things that have already happened on this journey, that God is asking us to step out in faith and trust HIM. It wasn't too long (about 20 minutes) after PaddyGirl and I had this conversation that the BLUE ladybug landed on HJ's head. I now realize that God sent me a blue ladybug to remind me that this is HIS will for our life - and not to worry.
So in my Memorial Box will be a picture of a BLUE ladybug
3 comments:
I love it!!!!! What an awesome God we serve! I love that it was blue! I had no idea that ladybugs could even be blue!!!!! Isn't God amazing with the tender and intimate way He encourages us????
Love it!
Shannon
oh my goodness!! That's just like GOD to give you a blue ladybug when you're adopting a boy!! :))
Beautiful story! Thank you for sharing!!
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